Depression

I’m Not Who I Used To Be

I used to be thin, outgoing, happy. I wore my heart on my sleeve. I never shied away from putting myself out there, never shrinking from the spotlight. I used to be so sure of myself and the things I believed in. I was confident, poised. But no more.

Because the truth is, I’m not who I used to be.

I’m overweight. I walk on eggshells. I’m way too hard on myself. I often obsess over things that are out of my control. I don’t laugh as much as I used to. I’m sad. I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. I feel unappreciated. I’m self-conscious. I feel stuck.

I may not be who I used to be, but I’ve become so much more.

I’m compassionate and kind. I love unapologetically. I’m empathetic. I’m loyal. Most importantly, I’m resilient. And that’s something to be grateful for.

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3 Comments

  • Reply Pam Gold October 10, 2019 at 1:36 pm

    I’m grateful to have you in my life. On top of everything you said, you’re loyal and beautiful and a wonderful mother and friend. I know how if feels to lose a part of yourself. I hope it comes back to you.

    • Reply kristi October 10, 2019 at 1:38 pm

      Thank you, Pam! I wish the same for you as well.

  • Reply schixowhatnow January 13, 2020 at 3:15 am

    “I may not be who I used to be, but I’ve become so much more.” This was beautiful. I often feel like I’ve lost a part of myself since becoming ill but this made me reconsider that. Maybe I’m still me, but stronger.

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